I have my pensions, state medicals so that is not a worry. I own my house so selling ut gives me money for a apartment after splitting the costs. No fears. Bad day yesterday. But hey, I kept the faith with myself. She has a cold and took to her bed for two days
Minor correction... You have half a house and half a pension. These things tend to get split during a divorce.
Depending upon your jurisdiction and length of the marriage you may only have 80 or so percent of your paycheck too.
Checking with a lawyer in your jurisdiction will help you know where you actually stand.
Sham's Law #1: Everything in life is simple. First you figure out what you want. Second, you figure out how to get it. Third you do it. The first step, unfortunately happens to be the hardest.