Post by scrimshaw on Oct 10, 2017 22:55:50 GMT -5
I'm not drunk, stone sober. But very depressed.
Last month was 8 years since DW and I had sex (yes, I know the date - 9/9/09 - hard to forget). Coming up on 6 years since my RL affair ...
Just remembered Sept 30 was the 10 year "anniversary" of my high school crush taking her own life. Her life sucked way worse than mine. I only found out about her life and her suicide a few years ago though. If only I'd ...
My most recent accomplishment is horrifically nerdy ... I just set up a headless Raspberry Pi with a GPS with PPS as a time server on my home LAN, accurate to about 50 us (.000050 seconds). I think if I put the GPS antenna somewhere it actually had a good clear view I could get that down to 20 us or so.
High school 30 year reunion was Saturday, I didn't go despite it only being about 60 miles away, I went to a breast cancer fundraiser with DW. An old memory popped into my head of a schoolmate telling me this one girl had a crush on me but was too shy to say anything. She was VERY pretty, and people had been pulling crap on me for years (plus this low self esteem thing isn't exactly new), so I presumed he was lying and never said anything to her. I've wondered off and on through the years if he wasn't lying. That gal didn't go to the reunion either, I'm not friends with her on FB, but I've seen here posts on the reunion page.
I was supposed to raise $2500 for a charity bike ride that's happening at the end of October. I've raised less than $1000. Note that I definitely am not saying that as a passive-aggressive way of asking for donations, that's how my online affair was discovered, so I don't want to deal with donations from people I don't know. We'll have to cover what I don't raise. Not riding isn't an option, we're riding the tandem ...
A friend from the EP ILIASM group (not my online AP), her DH has metastatic cancer, discovered in his retina, but it's spread to his bones. He has maybe 5 years, although it's proving to be very aggressive. I of course can't talk to anyone about this. I know too many people with cancer, too many people dying. I feel so damn helpless.
I wasn't able to bicycle Saturday because of the fundraiser, and where I live (Orange County, CA), has been full of smoke the last couple days from the Anaheim Hills fire, so no riding after work.
I thought I was getting a promotion at work, but it seems not.
When I was a young engineer, I worked with a bunch of old married guys, so there was a generation gap. Now that I'm an old married guy I work with a bunch of young engineers, so there's a generation gap.
Now it's time for some rum.
Last month was 8 years since DW and I had sex (yes, I know the date - 9/9/09 - hard to forget). Coming up on 6 years since my RL affair ...
Just remembered Sept 30 was the 10 year "anniversary" of my high school crush taking her own life. Her life sucked way worse than mine. I only found out about her life and her suicide a few years ago though. If only I'd ...
My most recent accomplishment is horrifically nerdy ... I just set up a headless Raspberry Pi with a GPS with PPS as a time server on my home LAN, accurate to about 50 us (.000050 seconds). I think if I put the GPS antenna somewhere it actually had a good clear view I could get that down to 20 us or so.
High school 30 year reunion was Saturday, I didn't go despite it only being about 60 miles away, I went to a breast cancer fundraiser with DW. An old memory popped into my head of a schoolmate telling me this one girl had a crush on me but was too shy to say anything. She was VERY pretty, and people had been pulling crap on me for years (plus this low self esteem thing isn't exactly new), so I presumed he was lying and never said anything to her. I've wondered off and on through the years if he wasn't lying. That gal didn't go to the reunion either, I'm not friends with her on FB, but I've seen here posts on the reunion page.
I was supposed to raise $2500 for a charity bike ride that's happening at the end of October. I've raised less than $1000. Note that I definitely am not saying that as a passive-aggressive way of asking for donations, that's how my online affair was discovered, so I don't want to deal with donations from people I don't know. We'll have to cover what I don't raise. Not riding isn't an option, we're riding the tandem ...
A friend from the EP ILIASM group (not my online AP), her DH has metastatic cancer, discovered in his retina, but it's spread to his bones. He has maybe 5 years, although it's proving to be very aggressive. I of course can't talk to anyone about this. I know too many people with cancer, too many people dying. I feel so damn helpless.
I wasn't able to bicycle Saturday because of the fundraiser, and where I live (Orange County, CA), has been full of smoke the last couple days from the Anaheim Hills fire, so no riding after work.
I thought I was getting a promotion at work, but it seems not.
When I was a young engineer, I worked with a bunch of old married guys, so there was a generation gap. Now that I'm an old married guy I work with a bunch of young engineers, so there's a generation gap.
Now it's time for some rum.
